Battered Dreams: A Multi-Part Tale of Nashville Noir, Part 3.

UPDATE! 4/01/07, 2:08 p.m. ET

A friend in Murfreesboro, Tennessee sent me key information after reading this blog entry that made me realize a section I'd originally posted, titled "Tom Johnson," needed a complete re-write. Essentially, it has to function as a standalone blog entry. So that section has been removed and will be posted with much more reliable info than I had in the original later today...
(To allow for what I hope is a more smoothly-flowing narrative, I elected to write this blog entry with the assumption that readers have read parts one and two. You should be able to follow along anyway, but reading the first installments of this story is strongly recommended. Also -- any name in this entry marked with an asterisk [*] is a pseudonym. ~ Steve)
"Between the eyes..."

Richard Grimes laughed and said, "No, Tom wasn't afraid of Sherry."

Memory plays odd tricks on you, especially if your memory is good but your attention span is short. From the conversation I'd first had in 1994 with my brother in law about alleged serial killer Tom Steeples I remembered that Richard joked that Tom, a short, stocky man with a walrus mustache, was afraid of my sister, Sherry Huff, who was a bit of an Amazon.

Turned out I'd confabulated the memory, likely from a lapse of attention during the conversation with Richard and a baby brother's tendency to idealize his formidable elder siblings.

The woman Tom Steeples feared a great deal was Richard's first wife,*Sandra. As imposing as my sister could be, I had heard rumors over the years about Richard's first wife -- that she was a pretty tough lady.

On the phone, recalling the time in his life when he'd worked with and to some degree been friends with a man who was later suspected of some horrifically savage acts, Richard sounded contemplative.

"Yeah... he was scared of Sandra. He knew she woulda put a bullet between his eyes if he tried anything."

It was probably too bad then that Tom had never "tried anything" with Richard Grimes's first wife. That theoretical bullet would have been too good for him.

Nashville, TN, March 7, 1994

Rob and Kelli Phillips had been in Nashville for less than a day. It is unclear from reading news reports published in 1994 whether or not Tom Steeples had gotten to know the couple prior to the night of March 7, but an article published in The San Diego Union-Tribune on May 28, 1994 stated the following: "Authorities subpoenaed telephone records that officials said indicate calls were placed from Steeples business to the motel that day..." -- Emphasis added.

Rob and Kelli somehow found out that night that a vocal contest was being held at the nearby Stagecoach Lounge. A fairly small place, it was still well-known in part because the famed country music group Alabama played the first gig they had in Nashville at the Stagecoach.

And for the Phillipses, who were said to have made the move in part to flee mounting debts on the West Coast, things began so well.

In an interview she gave to the Charleston Post & Courier in June of 2001, Rob's mom, Ann Phillips, told much of what she knew of the back story of that night in March. And of course, she also reminisced about her son...

It seemed like Rob grew up pretty much knowing where he wanted to go with his life. He got up unbidden one Sunday in his home church in South Carolina, all of 5 years old, and serenaded the congregation with a rendition of "Jesus Loves Me." Later, after growing into a rangy, blue-eyed young charmer, he formed The Charleston Band. Among their set pieces there were likely to be a number of cover versions of songs by George Strait, one of Rob's favorite country artists.

Rob Phillips would end many sets with Strait's "I Cross My Heart." Rob often crouched down at the edge of the stage to sing this song, gazing into Kelli's eyes as she watched from the floor.

No other currently available source supported some of what was reported in that Post & Courier article, so it could be that the facts of the case and what Rob Phillips wanted his mother to believe were two different things. It may be that Ann Phillips was the source for the following, though it was not written as a quote in the original piece:
At 24, [Rob's] musical career had been building up to that March 1994 day when he and Kelli drove to the country music capital to meet a producer and discuss a recording contract...
Was Tom Steeples masquerading as a music producer? The supposed meeting Rob was to have with a record producer combined with the evidence of calls from Computer Forms and Supplies to the Econo-Lodge where the couple was staying -- if Steeples met the Phillipses that night at the Stagecoach, when did he have time to go back to his business and then call them?

Whatever the case, Tom Steeples was at the Stagecoach Lounge that night. And one thing seems clear: Rob and Kelli Phillips likely had no idea who he really was, what they were dealing with. Tom Steeples was awaiting trial for murder. He'd already jumped bail and for a time absconded to the Cayman Islands, where both he and Tillie Ruth may have had ties to cocaine dealers.

Tom Steeples was also a man who had bragged to a friend about a "dungeon" in the basement of his home. There is even some sketchy evidence that Steeples was already an accomplished killer. A murder and assault that took place a year before Ronald Bingham was killed bore some marked similarities to what happened to Rob and Kelli Phillips, and will be discussed at length later.

Rob Phillips's first performance in Nashville was a winner. He called his mother Ann that night to tell her he'd won the contest and the prize of $100.00. While on the phone with his mom, Rob pulled the handset away so Ann could hear the clamor of music and drunken chatter.

Metro Davidson County Nashville Police have always kept the details of the murders of Rob and Kelli Phillips close to the vest, but the basics are known.

Rob was younger and larger than Steeples, probably stronger, more agile. To a killer in that situation, Rob had to be taken out first. Ann Phillips, after being told of the tragedy, asked one of the detectives, "Who died first?" Apparently, Rob did. Kelli Phillips's husband didn't witness the horrors she experienced.

Kelli, however, had gone to the hotel before Rob. He'd headed out to get some food. Rob was attacked after entering the room and bludgeoned without mercy. Again, the circumstances are not clear, but it sounds like Tom Steeples was with them all along, as there were witness accounts that put a man matching his description with the Phillipses at the Econo-Lodge.

Kelli was then tortured, raped, and finally bludgeoned to death as Rob lay dead near the hotel room door.

Richard Grimes heard, possibly from local newscasts in Nashville, that upon finding the bodies, investigators couldn't even determine the sexes of the victims. Kelli Phillips was identified using dental records, and Rob Phillips by his fingerprints. The families of the victims were never permitted to see them after death.

Cops arrested Tom Steeples on April 8. They had forensic evidence that tied Steeples to the murders, and again, the exact nature of that evidence has never been made public. Whether it was hair, DNA, or something else just isn't known outside of law enforcement.

Tom Steeples managed to kill himself 5 months later, ingesting cocaine that his wife Tillie managed to get to him inside the Davidson County Jail.

Essentially, the investigation into the murders of Ron Bingham and Rob and Kelli Phillips ceased, then. There were no other suspects.

Families have been left with a terrible sense of justice denied ever since. The Davidson County Jail had to make major changes to intake procedures, and anger at Steeples even being out on bail in the first place was expressed at nearly every turn.

Ann Phillips's faith, a faith she'd tried to pass on to her son, seemed shaken by the crime. Speaking to the newspaper in Charleston, Ann said, "Where was [Rob's] guardian angel? (...) Taking a coffee break?"

Tillie Ruth

When last we left Tillie Ruth Steeples, Tom's more "cunning" half, the preacher's daughter from Mississippi had just delivered a tell-tale sewing machine to a hapless employee named Donna Esstman, asking Esstman to keep the appliance in the trunk of her car.

Tom Steeples had just died from a massive overdose of cocaine in the Metro Nashville lockup -- the coke had been stuffed inside a latex glove which had in turn been sewn into the area of a pair of sweatpants where the drawstring was normally threaded. Sweatpants Donna Esstman bought at Tillie Ruth's request.

Nobody doubted what happened, really.

Tillie was charged with 2nd degree murder for Tom's death, but that charge was dropped. In 1997 Tillie Steeples pleaded no contest to drug charges in relation to the same case. She was sentenced to two three-year jail terms.

Tillie Ruth only did about 9 months.

She was paroled in November of 1999, and even though her dead husband was 5 years into the ground, Tillie Ruth Steeples didn't need Tom's psychopathic violence to keep life interesting. The Internet, the Web was just beginning to explode as a money-making machine for many, and Tillie Ruth wanted a bite of the apple.

(Up next: A mysterious attack on a couple in a hotel in Georgia by a man who called himself "Tom..." Two years before the deaths of Rob and Kelli Phillips, did Tom Steeples do a practice run? Then: Tillie Ruth meets another psychopath and they take their game to the Web...)

Poor Wynonna Judd... (Interlude: Current Nashville Noir)

Wynonna Judd's life has just become worse than the most morose country song. Country music is a conservative art, and folks just won't buy anything that makes them squirm in a bad way.

The daughterly half of mother-daughter country music duo The Judds went solo years ago, after it was discovered that her mother Naomi had a chronic illness that would not permit her to tour on a regular basis.

Wynonna has made her showing on the charts since then, but as a solo artist she hasn't achieved the same popularity she found as her mom's musical partner. Wynonna has a big, lusty voice that matches her body and the trademark Judd brassy red hair, but Wynonna Judd's personal problems have arguably been more memorable in recent years than her music. The best example might be November of 2003, when Nashville police pulled Judd after she was seen speeding down West End Avenue. Turned out she blew a 0.175 on the breathalyzer they gave, which was twice the legal 0.08 allowed by Tennessee law.

The new story beats the hell out of a DUI, though, and in this story, you can't help but feel for the country star.

First, some flashbacks. From the Newark (NJ) Star-Ledger, January, 2000:

The last man on Earth: Wynonna Judd, divorced last year, is "totally in love" with her bodyguard of eight years, Dan Roach. "He was the man who was there as I got out of the limo to walk down the aisle with my husband-to-be," the country star said. "The man who was there when my children were born. . . . It's pretty bizarre. . . . It was one of those 'I wouldn't kiss him if he was the last person alive.' We laugh about that a lot."
Next, we move to shortly after Wynonna's DUI arrest. This item was published in one form or another in papers worldwide on November 27, 2003:
Wynonna Judd has wed her longtime bodyguard, D.R. Roach.

The couple married Saturday in a private ceremony in the Leiper's Fork community about 30 miles south of Nashville, said publicist Ashley Eicher.

Sixty friends and family members attended, including Wynonna's mother, singer Naomi Judd, and her sister, actress Ashley Judd.

The church was draped in lavender and ivory, and the bride wore a custom-stitched and beaded ivory dress.

This is Wynonna's second marriage. She and Arch B. Kelly III split in 1998.

(...)

The 39-year-old singer was in the news the week before the wedding when Nashville police charged her with drunken driving. She said at the time she was celebrating her upcoming marriage.
If Wynonna has been on the wagon since her wedding to Roach, recent events might push her right off. From an article published in the Abilene (TX) Reporter-News on March 25, 2007:
D.R. Roach, the 49-year-old husband of country singer Wynonna Judd, was arrested last week and is being held at Taylor County Jail.

He is wanted as a fugitive from justice in Tennessee and was arrested at 9:40 p.m. Thursday, March 22, at 402 A Mulberry St. in Abilene, a jail official said. His bail is set at $750,000.

Shades of Hope, a rehabilitative treatment center listed at the address, could not confirm or deny if Roach was arrested there or if he had been a patient, a spokeswoman said.

The Judds have been frequent visitors to the area. Last year both Wynonna Judd and her sister, actress Ashley Judd, were treated at Shades of Hope...

The news certainly didn't improve. On March 27, MSNBC/AP published the following:

Wynonna Judd filed for divorce Tuesday from her estranged husband, Dan R. Roach, after his arrest last week in Texas on sex charges involving a minor.

Roach, 49, was arrested Thursday in Abilene and charged with three counts of aggravated sexual battery against a child younger than 13 in Nashville, police said.

He was expected to be extradited to Nashville, said police spokesman Don Aaron. It wasn’t known if he had an attorney...

The investigation into Roach as an abuser began in late February, 2007.

A statement was published on Wynonna Judd's website. It read, in part:

"I am obviously devastated. Our family will pull together, begin the healing process and hopefully - by the Grace of God - become stronger. We will move forward with our faith, family and our friends to find resolution to this difficult situation," Judd said.

Roach had been seeking treatment for drug and alcohol addiction at the Shades of Hope Treatment Center in Buffalo Gap, Texas since February 21, 2007...
After not even considering marrying the man for years, then thinking she'd had the love of her life in front of her all along, Wynonna Judd must have realized she'd probably married a child molester.

A man named Bart Butler started Rock Solid Security in Nashville in 1983. His partner in the business was Dan R. Roach. Three years later, Roach's name was the one used to register the firm with the State of Tennessee.

Here is how "D. R. Roach" was described on the site in recent years:
[D. R. Roach] has twenty-seven years of security experience and was an essential part of the formation and growth of Rock Solid Security, Inc. He has been touring with Wynonna as her Security Director since 1991. A few years ago he became her Road Manager as well a very important part of her life. (the real "Bodyguard" story)
The link was added to clarify the reference to the 1992 Kevin Costner/Whitney Houston movie.

This Google-cached page from a site devoted to news about Wynonna Judd had a news item where her mother Naomi told an interviewer about Dan Roach's proposal to her daughter:
Between takes for "Hollywood Squares," Naomi Judd called to give us the scoop on daughter Wynonna's recent engagement in Tennessee.

"My husband was in the backyard, reading," she recalled, when suddenly he spotted a horse-drawn white carriage on the road, carrying a "flaming-red-haired woman" who looked an awful lot like the romance novel version of Wynonna.

"We jumped in the truck," Judd said, and hauled on over to their daughter's house, which happens to be next door. They arrived just in time to see that Wynonna's boyfriend, D.R. Roach, had cracked open a bottle of champagne, put on a romantic CD and was proposing.

"We adore him," Judd said.
The Roach/Judd wedding that took place in 2003 was attended by a small number of people, but the reception was attended by luminaries like Oprah, Bono, Larry King, Garth Brooks, and Rosie O'Donnell.

Many accounts just indicate that Roach was a good guy. One account was found in a post on a message board at butch-femme.com, a website where lesbians into adopting hyper-masculine or hyper-feminine identities gathered to flirt, chat, discuss news of the day (Wynonna Judd has a more diverse following than some country stars, and among her biggest fans are gays, lesbians, transgendered people, and transvestites).

In a thread titled, "Have you met a celebrity?", a poster with the screen name "femmelovinboi" recalled Roach's kindness at Wynonna's first concert alone after her mother stopped touring with her. The poster had apparently known Roach in the past:
As my date and I were walking to the door I hear this voice call my name. It was coming from the direction of Wynonna's bus. It was Roach. I didn't know he was with Wy at that time but he and I have known each other from way back in the day. I was shocked to see him, shocked to know he worked with Wy and almost stroked out when he said he'd get me backstage (...) He not only got me backstage but on her bus. I got to sit there on the bus and talk with her, her Mom and Ashley who were there supporting Wy on her first night "alone." I have some very special pics of each time I've seen her. I'll never forget that and could not have been happier when I heard a few years later that she was marrying my good friend Roach. I have gone to as many of her concerts as I could, which has been several and each time I get to go back and talk to her. What a true blessing she is...
Working in entertainment security, in positions of trust with famous people -- Dan R. Roach was apparently talented at ingratiating himself with others, if nothing else. Wynonna talked about Roach to a Canadian publication in August of 2001, and said, "I know that we can make it through anything because we have been co-workers and friends for the last 10 years (...) We laugh constantly and learn something from each other every day."

Celebrities aren't any better than the rest of us at plotting the trajectories their lives take, sometimes. But after a decade, Wynonna Judd's certainty that she knew Dan Roach's "heart" was pretty reasonable -- over that length of time, most of us would probably be in the same boat. Obviously she wasn't able to learn the most important thing about him -- that he was apparently a predator. As is always the case with molesters, it was likely Roach's most well-hidden trait.

As to who Roach's victim(s) was/were or how far back any criminal history may go, no one knows much publicly. It's a little scary that he had more than a decade to be on the road, traveling the world as the leading member of Wynonna's crew. Maybe there wasn't time for him to go off on his own, but still, you have to wonder. And it can't escape anyone, the fact that Wynonna has two young children by her first husband, Arch Kelley.

Whatever the case, as the story spreads, so does Dan Roach's mugshot. Life for him as an accused molester and the soon-to-be former husband of Wynonna will not improve. If he makes bail, it may even get worse.

Nashville, my hometown, has a love-hate relationship with the country stars and music that put the city on the map in the 20th Century. Cases like this will bring out the love for Wynonna. And legions of bull-necked, popeye-armed good old boys who haven't given that ax handle in the rifle rack in their pickup much of a workout in recent years will have Dan Roach's grizzled face firmly fixed in their minds' eyes. If, that is, Roach is unlucky enough to make it back to Nashville and post bond.

If you are sensing that I might condone such a thing, you're right. Okay, maybe not in reality. I understand the sentiment, though.

Yesterday I made a post at my personal weblog. In it, I even posted an mp3 of me singing the tenor aria "Nessun dorma," from Puccini's Turandot. That and my being a writer might make it seem like I've filtered as much Nashville as possible out of my makeup. But nothing would be further from the truth. There is a deeply ingrained part of me that completely empathizes with the need to take certain criminals out and administer a righteous beating. Guys like Dan Roach, if the charges against him are proven true. That beating would be for his victims, and yes, for his obviously gravely wronged wife, whether she is a famous country singer or not.

If you don't get that, I can't really explain it any better than I have. It's a southern thing, you wouldn't understand.

Right about now, I believe Wynonna Judd might understand, though.

This entry might be updated if needed.

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Battered Dreams: A Multi-Part Tale of Nashville Noir, Part 2...


"A wonderful man..."
Tom Steeples had been in jail since April, 1994, but he would never go to trial. Not for the murder of Ron Bingham in 1993, not for the rape and murder of Kelli Phillips, nor the murder of Kelli's husband Rob.

At least that's what Tillie Steeples told some people working for her and Tom at Computer Forms and Supplies.

Tillie also informed the headmaster of the Christian private school attended by the two Steeples children that Tom wouldn't go to trial. In fact, she told Dr. Danny Kellum that Thomas Steeples was going to commit suicide and after that Tillie would receive a large insurance settlement, more than a half-million dollars.

On April 29, 1994 -- Tom had been in jail for almost 3 weeks, having been picked up on drug charges and two counts of murder in relation to the deaths of Rob and Kelli Phillips -- Tillie Ruth Steeples wrote Dr. Kellum a letter.

Tillie was all over the place. On the one hand, Tom was always gone, and "half the time" no one knew where he was. On the other hand, Tillie Steeples wanted the headmaster to know that her husband was "a wonderful man" who deserved respect from the "faculty, staff, student body, and community."

Tillie planned to give the school $75,000 for a new library -- on the condition that it be named after Tom Steeples. That plan was jettisoned and the check she'd set aside torn up when the school expelled her son.

Business papers

Tillie asked one of her employees, Don Vanloon, how much cocaine would it take to kill a person? Don's answer was not recorded, but on July 25, 1994, Tillie withdrew $1,000 from the bank and met a "known drug dealer," Fred Ross, at a Days Inn on Trinity Lane very close to the center of downtown Nashville.

The following day, Tillie left work to meet with Mark McDougal, her legal counsel. Together she and McDougal went to the Metropolitan Davidson County Jail, where Tillie gave McDougal a package of papers that were to be given to Tom Steeples.

Tillie said they were "business papers."

Just the day before, attorney McDougal had passed along other papers. Perhaps it wasn't that strange for her to send more, but Tillie's insistence that she go with McDougal to the jail was notable.

Tom Steeples was all business as he took the new package from McDougal. He'd chatted before, but not that day. Instead he got a drink and headed back to his cell.

Steeples was searched by a couple of guards when he got back to his cell, and they snagged an envelope that had cigarettes taped to it.

As he was being searched, Tom Steeples snatched another envelope from a guard, and this packet was filled with white powder. Steeples tried to eat it, paper and all.

Tom Steeples was hustled to the hospital, walrus mustache and mouth still white from the coke he'd tried to eat.

Tillie Ruth's fingerprints would later be found on the tape used to attach the envelope filled with coke to the business papers.

A Yankee Hustler

On the phone, Richard Grimes sounded a little tired, maybe a little wary. After all, he and my sister, Sherry Huff, had been separated for a while, and the Huffs have never been the sort of family who check in with each other constantly, in general. A call from his estranged wife's little brother must have felt a little odd.

We chatted for a bit, and I quickly recalled how easy it had always been to talk with my brother in law. Much of the time he was a man of measured words, thoughts carefully considered. In this, he was very different from any blood relative I had. In a family of manic talkers, Richard's quiet and thoughtfulness were often a welcome respite from the usual clamor heard at holiday gatherings.

At first, Richard seemed to groan inwardly at the idea of talking about Tom Steeples.

Cops interviewed my brother in law at length after the October 1993 murder of Ron Bingham. After Steeples was established as the main suspect, detectives began to build as much background on the man as possible. They wanted a solid idea of who -- of what -- they were dealing with.

They'd tracked Tom Steeples back to his days working in Memphis, Tennessee in the late '60s and early '70s when the name Richard Grimes came up. "I was a known... acquaintance," Richard said.

Richard told me that when police finally contacted him to set up an interview about his former co-worker, his reaction was, "what took you so long?"

Tom Steeples came to Memphis in '69, from the Chicago area. Richard recalled that Tom's father was a police chief there, and indeed, in the early '70s a man named Willis Steeples was chief of police for the village of Justice, Illinois. At one time, Richard knew Tom Steeples well enough that he traveled to Illinois with Tom and met his parents.

About Steeples's move from Chicago to Memphis, Richard said, "He probably just blew town because he was in some kind of trouble."

According to Richard Grimes, Tom had one angle only in the sales work they did together -- what was the angle that would net him the profit?

This was a laid-back time, one of long hair and casual drug use. Stocky, short Tom Steeples, with his thick head of hair and long mustache, still didn't quite fit in.

Steeples's approach to wheeling and dealing alienated others. Richard explained: "Everything had to do with, 'what we can get out of it?' For him it seemed to be all about the money, trying to hustle somebody."

At first, Richard put Tom's brash nature and the way others reacted to the man down to a culture clash. He was a Yankee, and didn't understand the southern culture of business deals. There was a song and a dance to be done, and if you had the feel for it, southerners would work with you. If your main motive was pure profit and that was completely transparent, a lot of southern businessmen would go cold.

However, Tom could seem very presentable. "He knew how to pull himself off very professional. I guess his aberrant personality didn't start ringing any bells until we got deep in the hippie days," Richard said.

And what about Tillie?

Tillie Ruth Steeples apparently put her husband to shame.

Dealing with them taught anyone perceptive enough that they were a terribly well-matched pair; Tom was aggressive, and he came up with some wild ideas, but Tillie Ruth was the one who was cunning. Between the two, Tillie Steeples was the planner.

In the lining

Tom Steeples survived the envelope episode.

August replaced July, Nashville sweltering all along. Tillie Ruth, however, decided that her incarcerated husband needed a sweatsuit.

Once again, she went to an employee, this time a woman named Donna Esstman. On Tillie's behalf Donna purchased the sweatsuit and some other items. On August 10, 1994, a care package containing these things was sent not to Tom Steeples, but another inmate at the jail named Michael Evans.

Evans would later give testimony that he'd received the package after speaking with Tillie Steeples on the phone. Evans told Tom Steeples where the package was, and went off to take a shower.

Tom Steeples had a massive heart attack that August day and died. He'd ingested enough cocaine to kill a Clydesdale.

Steeples called Computer Forms and Supplies earlier the same day and spoke with Tillie. In courtroom testimony given later, Donna Esstman would state that after receiving the phone call, Tillie Steeples was upset. Esstman also said that later, after a more official phone call, Tillie told her that it was over, and she [Tillie] did what her husband wanted her to do.

Also testifying under oath, Detective Pat Postiglione detailed events following Steeples's receipt of his "care package."

No cocaine residue was found on the sweats, tubesocks, or underwear Tom brought back to his cell on August 10th. Closer inspection of the sweatpants revealed a rip in the area where the drawstring was supposed to be. Near Tom Steeples's body investigators found part of a latex glove.

Tom Steeples's body was still cooling when Tillie Ruth called Donna Esstman and asked her for another favor. Tillie brought a sewing machine to Donna's residence, and asked her employee to hold on to the appliance. Esstman agreed to keep the sewing machine in the trunk of her car.

(In the next installment, I try to piece together how Rob and Kelli Phillips ever crossed paths with Tom Steeples in the first place. I also go into possible failures in the system that let Tom Steeples be out and about when he was already suspected in one murder. And there will be more... but you'll just have to read it then. ~ Steve Huff)

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